Day 5 - Monday 2.12

Tracking my time: Today it was hard to stay motivated. Today, my dad would have turned 55. He passed away in November of 2016 so about a year and a half ago now. I didn't want to do anything but things had to be done. I woke up early at 7am and did about an hour of homework. Then I crawled back into bed and ended up missing my first class. Managed to get myself showered and ready for my second class, but I was late. However, I got another 40 minutes of homework done. After my second class I skipped my third and called my mum to talk about my good memories with my dad. It was bitter sweet. I then went off to the ski hill with a friend. My dad was the one who too my brother and I skiing growing up in BC. I thought it would be a good, fun way to remember him. After hitting the slopes, I made it home in time for FHE where the turnout was low. I then took some time to myself. I drove up to the Provo temple, sat in my car, and had a good cry. Most of the time I forget to give myself time to feel the pain I still have. I like to think I am beyond the grieving process but I'm not. Before bed, I managed to do a bit more homework, but it means more to do on Tuesday and Wednesday. I have to remember on days when I'm feeling down not to beat myself up when I don't get everything done I intended to.